Saturday, November 27, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
everyday
everyday of my life i'm told to shutup. everyday of my life im made to feel like im not worth shit.
everyday of my life i yearn for someone to show me that they really love me. everyday of my life i stand in the bathroom with a pair of scissors. didnt know that? now you do. and everyday of my current life, i stop myself for the same reason i stand there.
im not dramatic, im sensitive, something that you were extremely and i held my words back, so please, hold yours.
im not psychotic, im unstable, and im working on it, so please don't push me.
i hate the word annoying. im told that most days of my life too, and i hate it because can't imagine someone who use to be there for me all the time, suddenly disappear and say to myself that its better off.
i struggle with so much thoughts and feelings that i can't even handle, so when you dump your aggressiveness on me because you think im annoying, think twice, cause the amount of shit you give me is the number of steps i take up that ladder to the rooftop.
if im annoying, its cause i need you. and you know that so for once, be a fucking man and show that kindness you show everyone else around you to me. cause i need it. even just for a minute.
this is probably more than ive ever said on my blog about myself. so cheers to me huh?
everyday of my life i yearn for someone to show me that they really love me. everyday of my life i stand in the bathroom with a pair of scissors. didnt know that? now you do. and everyday of my current life, i stop myself for the same reason i stand there.
im not dramatic, im sensitive, something that you were extremely and i held my words back, so please, hold yours.
im not psychotic, im unstable, and im working on it, so please don't push me.
i hate the word annoying. im told that most days of my life too, and i hate it because can't imagine someone who use to be there for me all the time, suddenly disappear and say to myself that its better off.
i struggle with so much thoughts and feelings that i can't even handle, so when you dump your aggressiveness on me because you think im annoying, think twice, cause the amount of shit you give me is the number of steps i take up that ladder to the rooftop.
if im annoying, its cause i need you. and you know that so for once, be a fucking man and show that kindness you show everyone else around you to me. cause i need it. even just for a minute.
this is probably more than ive ever said on my blog about myself. so cheers to me huh?
Saturday, November 6, 2010
studying sucks stupid squidballs
so ive been in the library for like 6 hrs and i havent done jack shit ive been absolutely procrastinating on facebook for the longsest i have ever been on facebook just talking and commenting and shit. its so sad =( and yeah ive got more then 3 assignments due which im all fucked for but there is no motivation for me to continue. i just have to get through one more month and im free. i really want to go back to melbourneeeee and i want to hang out with my friends. and go and play and drink till i pass out lol well no i dont want to do that i want to just go out. hehehe hmm i have some things on my agenda already.
i will be going to melbourne for NYE. no point staying here anymore and ill be attending armin only weeeeee =) with my melbourne friends and hopefully meet a friends baby nephew cause he looks so adorable in the pictures and also i want to go on a trip? maybe to a beach house or something. my mate from four seasons wants me to go with his friends but i dont know his friends and plus i got school still so thats odd. hmm what else thats about it i guess. earn some dosh. and lose weight hahahha i want to be 43 kilogramsssss or 42 im like 45-47 right now it fluctuates so unattractive since im short and just short and fat. lol stump much.
so i need to get a new learners license ay. its been expired for like half a year plus i really need to learn to drive so i can do my own shit and dont have to take a bus from work like fucking everyday. such a drag.
i have drank 2 coffees today. quite little and quite tired =( i just want to sleep i got home at 5am yesterday and i woke at 9am sighhhhhh
hope yall having a great time doing what yall doing. i really want to hang out =) so call me. and ryyy when you going overseas again?
i work at gloria jeans and own a starbucks coffee mug=) life is full of betrayals.
i will be going to melbourne for NYE. no point staying here anymore and ill be attending armin only weeeeee =) with my melbourne friends and hopefully meet a friends baby nephew cause he looks so adorable in the pictures and also i want to go on a trip? maybe to a beach house or something. my mate from four seasons wants me to go with his friends but i dont know his friends and plus i got school still so thats odd. hmm what else thats about it i guess. earn some dosh. and lose weight hahahha i want to be 43 kilogramsssss or 42 im like 45-47 right now it fluctuates so unattractive since im short and just short and fat. lol stump much.
so i need to get a new learners license ay. its been expired for like half a year plus i really need to learn to drive so i can do my own shit and dont have to take a bus from work like fucking everyday. such a drag.
i have drank 2 coffees today. quite little and quite tired =( i just want to sleep i got home at 5am yesterday and i woke at 9am sighhhhhh
hope yall having a great time doing what yall doing. i really want to hang out =) so call me. and ryyy when you going overseas again?
i work at gloria jeans and own a starbucks coffee mug=) life is full of betrayals.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)