city and colour

OMG SOOOO CITY AND COLOUR IS TOURING AUSTRALIA IN APRIL AND THEY ARE HEADING TO SYDNEY APRIL 5TH TUESDAY! IM TOTALLY GOING TO GO BUT I DONT KNOW WHO TO GO WITH SO I TOTALLY HAVE TO FIND SOME FRIEND WHO KNOWS OF THEM AND CAN SPILL OUR LOVE TOWARDS THE GODLY CREATURE THEY CALL DALLAS GREEN AT HIS CONCERT AT ENMORE THEATRE.

this whole week. i am not as happy as i am now that i have found out something in this life is worth it. and dallas green is sooooo worth it. mann why can't guys be like dallas green. i dont personally know him but i dont give, hes compassionate, loving, kind and sooo down to earth its like a fucking friendly martian landed and learnt how to play the acoustic extraordinarily and has some mutant fucking amazing voice that makes me want to cry just listening to it.

thankyou for intro-ing him to me a few years back andy but fuck you need to learn some shit from this guy man. compassion, grace and all that stuff. hes a man!

dallas green. i love you and this isnt the whole fan shit well it is but i feel like i love you. if i could and it didnt seem like the most stupid thing in the world, i would tattoo your name on my body cause thats how much you changed my life, but then i wont cause thats what all those crazy fans do and i want to quietly manifest in this love i have for you by myself. hahahaha its 6am in the morning and you are the first male i have thought of. hahaha plus i havent slept yet. saw the sunrise and everything. plus i got home at 5 when my mum was up to go to work. awkwardddddd.

wow

wow andy, theres one thing to tell me to leave you alone and tell me to fuck off and theres another thing to full disregard me as your friend at all like on facebook. i think you're being the most immature person.

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there are so many things you can realise without even seeing it coming. 

and the thing i realised is, im such a fucking loser. in so many complicated ways its ridiculous of me to be so oblivious to myself. 

these empty walls

so my friend says we're all human but FUCK THAT i hate when someone like they are so genuine when they say something like years ago and then they turn they're back on it as if it was just a moment thing that they said it. and when they help you that one time they say oh yeah remember i said i was this and id be this for you and then like two days later they treat you like dirt. those are the friends that should just fucking rot in hell.

and fuck the friends who are so two faced. when they are alone with you they act as if they are on your side or whatever and actually when go and tell the other friends shit. those people are fucked up too.

id think that my high school friends are well more understanding and mature but fuck them all. seriously. they are so fucking stupid that they think high school teen drama is like the story of their life. seriously get over it. i want nothing to do with each and everyone of them if i could. thats why i swear i should have been in the higher grade cause some of the boys and girls in mine are fucking immature shits.

i only told you, you were there you know, you were there the whole day and you now refuse to help me? thats so heartless when you know that in a heartbeat if your mate wanted you to go do something you'd drop everything just to hang out with them but why not me. seriously its not fair. you didnt lose anything. but i did. i lost everything.

invisibility cloak

who's seen harry potter 7? if you have then youll get this. my most favorite part in the whole movie is the story of the deathly hallows and the whole animation part with the three brothers. and if i was anyone of them id too like an invisibility cloak. then when i thought about it i did. i have my very own invisibility cloak and thats just me. its awesome really. you do what you want you say what you want and noone fucking hears you. noone sees you noone cares cause they dont know you were there in the first place. i could sit at a dinner table playing a game and noone would come up and say what are you doing. or noone would ask after not seeing me for practically six months ask how i was or what ive been doing. its weird huh? but since im getting tired of the invisibility cloak i too feel like its time and death should come and greet me with his deep dark eyes and tattered cloak that surrounds his pure white skeletal body. it'd be pretty cool i reckon.

other news, i passed my financial exam. i thought i didnt do every well cause i didnt know half the stuff but i passed. thank god. and i think i passed all the rest. it would be absolutely terrible if i didnt cause i dont want to have to repeat another half year of school i think im going to jump off a building. i really wonder if people like live for three days just being stuck on the floor cause apparently you mightn't die if you jump off a building, and i mean obviously it has to be a significant height. and not like the first story of the building. but i heard from a significant height you could still live for a bit cause i dont know but imagine just lying flat of the ground waiting to die, that would be terrible. thats practically lying in a bed waiting to die in a hospital. i feel sorry for patients now.

i woke up at 3.30am yesterday to go to work. it was killer. and today i have work at 5:30 its a short reception so hopefully i can leave early. im not very into work at the moment. the further i move on in life the more i think about parting everyone i know. i just want to be somewhere totally alone where i can just do what i want for me and not have to think about everyone else that is part of my life. hehe sounds quite rude. but i want something for me for a change.

oh wells. ive got two staff parties next week. one of tuesday and one on monday. sweet i dont know why i said tuesday first but yeah monday tuesday. its only 10:30 in the morning and i already feel like ive been awake this whole time and noone has said a word to me. but instead sit outside eating breakfast whilst i walk around the house like a ghost. sweet ay? invisibility cloaks to fucking work! =D